In a world of back and forth. Ups and downs and whirlwinds of disappointment and triumph. It can be so easy to get lost in the struggle of staying afloat in this ocean we call life. For me music can act as a life raft in the foggy abyss of a dark storm. I feel like i am not alone in the feeling that these last 2 years  have tossed us into this "Land of Confusion" so to speak forcing us to claw at anything to keep us grounded and afloat. In the midst of it i feel so lucky to have my copilot in this band and writing partner and our music that tethers me to a life i feel is worth living. In an age that at times feels so lifeless and unthriving i can thrive through my craft and feel like i am working towards something everyday. We can all loose sight of our goals, our passions and our lives as they sometimes sink into the mundane of the daily grind. We can forget to withdraw from the day to day and pour passion and art and enjoyment back into our souls. 

Even in music you can get into this pattern of slumps and dry spells and discouragement. I am thankful during those times we are able to redirect re-asses and spark new life new material and new experiences into what we do while staying true to the vision we have laid out for this band. This project. This life! After all Widowmakers it is us who lights our path the world may twist and turn how we get to our end goal but with perseverance  determination grace and the wisdom to occasionally re direct when needed we can attain all that we seek and meet every goal we lay out for ourselves. 

Keep treading water it only makes you stronger and if the current overtakes you open your eyes to the beauty thats underneath the waves! 

Xox 

The Widow

I am on fire..... Not in the way i have been as i have seen the world aflame as of late. The pain i was feeling has given way to inspiration. Things have been on a bit of a standstill for us the last month as the air quality and pandemic have consumed our minds and health and lives. But last night we finally laid it all out in the studio. and friends music speaks! " I thought by now i'd be somewhere else. but now my dreams sit on a shelf. asperations in a hidden drawer and memories scattered on the floor, How long since we looked around ? found hidden beauty and some solid ground? when did i become this me? no longer free and its killing me." this is an exert from our song standing still ( give it a listen on our music page!) and as i sang these lyrics i had written it was as if i was hearing them for the first time. Ever listen to the radio and a song comes on you've heard a thousand times  but it feels like the first time all over again? that was me! what am i doing what has this life become getting so wrapped up  in the chaos that has been 2020 getting so focused on waiting for a new year a new dawn that you forget about today this moment, this sunset, this life we have been so graciously given . So i decided i am not wasting it i dont want to waste a dime a moment or a tear! i want to soak it in the good the ugly the beautiful! I have been searching for this silver lining in the smoke and haze and i thought it just wasnt there but i realize i was just looking in the wrong direction blinded by flames and masks. It has been so long without being able to touch the world i stopped letting it touch me! I think as a whole earth this is relatable since at this moment in life we are all going through many of the same things because all of our worlds have been and continue to be rocked .... and not in the good way as music venues are hit hard as well as musicians and all other industries affected so deeply by the state of current affairs. But friends , family , follower,,, WIDOWMAKERS!!!  I just wanted to say i feel ,you i hear you ,i am you!!! but use your gifts do things that make you feel alive! And please whatever you do do not give up give yourself something to look forward to and everyday dammit do something you live for. Because the only failure in life is rolling over and letting life get the better of you live each day . I dont know i guess i just feel like that saying life is to short is true why waste it! Lets live! However we can whenever we can! 

Xox 

The Widow

"I'm on the edge.. leaning to far...I feel like falling and I've been here before!!" 

It has been so exciting to release this song publicly. Those who have followed us for some time know we really like to have a good time but we also like to write things with meaning. For me this song has so much meaning written a year or more ago it has evolved in the recording process and isn't written in response to the feelings current events invoke. But it is no less relevant a year ago as I sat chewing on my pencil scribbling madly in the studio during rehearsal as I heard emotions speaking to me through the guitar presented to me. I love for people to find their own meanings in songs I feel like it's important. it doesn't hurt my feelings if someone hears something that we've wrote and it speaks differently to them than it did to us. But I think this is a song that we can all relate to at one time or another that feeling of being at the edge of your wit your literal wits end and feeling like you're just going to fall and you're not going to make it through this trial or tribulation. I feel lucky that I have music as an outlet especially during times like these I feel lucky that I get to share a gift a passion a livelihood with the world and they were offered so many platforms to do that. Not everyone is so lucky some people find themselves at the edge and they do fall they are not weak but they lack a support system around them or a feeling of support system. Music has been that support system for me when I have felt I didn't have one elsewhere that is what my goal with my song writing is I want to touch peoples hearts, I want to understand and make others feel understood. So I write my trials I write my feelings and I share a sense of vulnerability with you all. My dearest widowers were all in this together aren't we? 

Xox 

The WIdow

Everyone has their thing! for us that thing is music. It heals, comforts, soothes, cleanses and bridges divides that would otherwise be uncrossable. During times of pain, reflection, happiness, celebration, or sensual moments we use music to help us through. When in need of guidance, relaxation, ,motivation , sleep, feeling or just enjoyment music is there for us all. 

Let us take comfort in this! When we feel as though there is no one else around there is someone who has felt what we feel and has been through it who is speaking to us through music. When we find ourselves thrown to the wolves in crazy times such as current events let us take a breath and dive into our favorite album, song or station. Rock it out !! Like your in your car and you just know people are'nt watching you!! Ok Ok most likely they are... but you know what they say... Whoever they are dance like no one is watching! And don't forget to turn it up!!!! Drowned out the chaos that surrounds you and let it all dissapear...... until next time my dear Widowmakers!

From the fog laden grave lined trees where the band has been working its magic writing & recording a huge collection of twisted, heart-hitting melodies to share with all you Widowmakers out there! We are proud to unveil to you all White Widow! Leading with singles and a music video to follow late Spring 2020. Follow their dark and twisted path on social media  or better yet.... Sign up for email updates right here and be 1st to know what comes next.